Sunday, May 29, 2011

butterflies :)

Friday night, I know that I without a single doubt, felt those little flutters of the baby's movement.

It's compared to a bubbly feeling or flutters like that of butterfly wings and I've been feeling them every night since Friday night. There are many milestones in a pregnancy, but those first movements are definitely in my top two favorite moments of pregnancy.

Just had to document and share. :)

Friday, May 27, 2011

15 Weeks :)

Your baby is as long as four and a half inches right now, and weighs a bit over two ounces. Hold a large navel orange in your hand — that's how big your little darlin' is. 
Curious why your body is finally looking like it's pregnant? That's because your baby is growing bigger each week — he or she is as long as four and a half inches right now. Need a better visual (and a snack)?  Hold a large navel orange in your hand — that's how big your little darlin' is at 15 weeks pregnant. (Now that you're done looking, peel that orange and eat it for a delicious two servings of vitamin C!).  
So what keeps your baby busy all day? Mostly, your fetus is in rehearsals — practice, practice, practicing, and getting ready for that big debut. Babies practice breathing, sucking, and swallowing so that when they leave your comfy womb and move into your comfy house, they'll have the skills necessary to survive.   Fetal body movements continue to get practice this week, too. But because your baby weighs so little (a bit over two ounces), you won't feel the calisthenics going on inside your abdominal gym. But don't let that fool you. Your fetus is holding daily aerobics classes — kicking, curling toes, and moving those little arms and legs.  
And with each passing week, your fetus is looking more and more like the baby you're picturing in your dreams. By now, the ears are positioned properly on the sides of the head (they used to be in the neck) and the eyes are moving from the side of the head to the front of the face — where they'll soon meet your loving gaze.
Size of Baby: large navel orange sized

Total Weight Loss/Gain: -17 pounds

Maternity Clothes: none... my clothes, especially pants are getting baggy on me.  Go figure.  I don't do anything normally, including pregnancy.

Gender: still unknown for approximately 4 more weeks

Movement: I've felt one thing that I am almost certain was movement.  Expect more in the next couple of weeks. :)  We did hear the baby moving with the doppler at our last appointment.

Sleep: same as before.  Sleeping alright.

What I miss: Not giving a second thought to the amount of caffiene and/or other things like medicines etc I consume.

What I'm looking forward to: the big ultrasound! and Disneyland.  But I suppose that that is not really pregnancy related.

Cravings: yellow tomatoes, cheese, melon (especially watermelon!) and potatoes.

Symptoms: nausea, headaches, ligament pain

This week was a huge week for our family!  We had another doctor appointment where we got to gratefully hear the little ones heart beat, beating strong at 161 bpm and scheduled our big ultrasound where we will hopefully find out if its a he or a she for June 27th, the week after we get back from Disneyland.

In general, pregnancy wise, I have been feeling a bit better.  Less nauseated and finally starting to feel a bit more like myself.  I'm also actually starting to enjoy food again, instead of begrudgingly eating it to keep me from getting sick.  Cravings are popping up, luckily all healthy!

The other big, exciting happening of our life this week (and the reason for late posting) was the fact that Roslyn graduated kindergarten and is officially a first grader now.  We have had the most incredible, amazing year this year with her in school.  We were blessed with the kind of teacher that you dream of for your children and were able to actively participate in her school experience through volunteering and witness first hand how much she flourished and thrived in school.  Our little girl is an avid and passionate reader and writer, the one who used to be 'allergic to dancing' now prances through her days, and she can count, do math, knows all her shapes, sounds and so so much more.  Many tears were shed as this day approached, but we are so grateful and so proud of everything she has experienced and accomplished this year and we know without a doubt that she is ready to be our big first grade girl.  I don't know that anything will ever be as magical or special as her kindergarten year was for us, but we are so excited for the rest of her education to unfold before us.

I hope that everyone has had a wonderful week! :)

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

14 weeks :)

Week 14 Of Pregnancy: Fetal Movement 
If you could peek inside yourself now, you'd see a baby the size of your clenched fist [or a decent sized lemon according to] (and come to think of it, at 14 weeks of fetal development, your little one can clench his or her own fist!). As fetal development continues, your baby also has the coordination, strength, and smarts to wiggle his or her fingers and toes and even suck a thumb (how cute is that?). 
At 14 Weeks Pregnant, Your Baby is a Mover (But Not a Shaker Yet) 
Growing by leaps and bounds, by week 14 of pregnancy, your baby is leaping and bounding. He or she is on the move almost constantly — and those movements are a far cry from those jerky twitches of last trimester (though you won't feel any of them for weeks to come). They are now ballet-like, smooth and fluid.  
Your Baby at 14 Weeks: Developing Perfect Posture (or Better Posture, at Least) 
Speaking of ballet, it'll be years before you'll start nagging your offspring to stand up straight — but unbelievably, he or she is doing it right now, without any prodding!  No slouch anymore, your baby's neck is getting longer, helping his or her head stand more erect. This gives your 14-week-old fetus a more straightened-out appearance.
Your Little Bigfoot — A Hairy Baby at 14 Weeks 
Growth is happening on top of the head as well — by 14 weeks pregnant, your baby could be sprouting some hair (though the final color may not be determined until birth) and the eyebrows are filling in, too.
Hair growth isn't limited to the baby's head, though.   He or she is also covered with a downy coating of hair called lanugo, largely there for warmth. As fat accumulates later on in your pregnancy (the baby's fat, not yours — though that will accumulate, too), most of the lanugo will shed — though some babies, especially those born early, still have a fuzzy coating at delivery (it sheds soon afterward).

Size of baby: about the size of a clenched fist or a lemon

Total Weight Gain/Loss: -13.5 or so pounds

Maternity Clothes: No official maternity clothes, but loving my baggy, gathered at the bottom tanks and cardigan over that to try to conceal the changes that I'm seeing that look less like baby and more like water retention lol!

Gender: should know sometime by the end of June/early July

Movement: I am about 90% sure that I felt the first movement on Sunday night. <3

Sleep: sleeping alright. I think that thyroid meds help that. :)

What I miss: Sandwiches. 

What I'm Looking Forward To: Hearing the heart beat at our appointment on Monday, finding out if its a boy or a girl.

Cravings: Potatoes... preferably loaded mashed potatoes.

Symptoms: Morning sickness, headaches, ligament pain

Yay!  I made it to the second trimester!  I am so happy and excited to reach this milestone in this pregnancy.  So excited that Drew and I bought a little onesie tonight to kind of celebrate it.  Super cute.  

We have a doctor appointment this coming Monday and I absolutely cannot wait to hear the heartbeat while we're there and maybe even get to schedule our big ultrasound.  I know that I will be ordered to have more blood work done (BOO!) to check and see how my thyroid is after 6 weeks on the medicine, but it's all worth it.  Hopefully I am one of the lucky ones who the right dose was guessed and given the first time.  Here's to hoping!

This last week has had its share of ups and downs with stress and morning sickness, but I really feel like we are coming out on the other side of the negativity and stress in life and I have been able to successfully manage the morning sickness for the most part, so even if it doesn't get any better from here on out, I know that I can handle it where it is now.

Roslyn had her follow up for her thumb today and we were given the clear for no more antibiotics, just to keep an eye on it and that it continues to get better.  She'll lose the thumb nail at some point and it might not grow in normally for a few months since the infection was in the growth plate of the thumb nail.  We're grateful for her to have a great and caring doctor and finally be in the clear for the most part, truly a weight lifted!

I hope everyone is having a wonderful week!

Wednesday, May 11, 2011

13 Weeks :)

Your fetus is now about three inches long, the size of a peach — and half of that length is head. By the time your baby is ready to make his or her entrance into the world, the head will be only one-fourth as large as the body. 
Your fetus is about three inches long and the size of a peach at 13 weeks pregnant. But don't compare your fetus with the fetus next door. Starting about now, babies begin growing at different paces, some faster than others, some more slowly, though they all follow the same developmental path. Growing at a universally breakneck speed now is your baby's body as it tries to catch up to the head in terms of size. Though your baby's head is about half the size of its body now, by the time your baby is ready to make his or her entrance into the world, the head will be only one-fourth as large as the body.  
Your baby's intestines are also in for some big changes right now. Up till this point, they've been growing in a cavity inside the umbilical cord; but now they're moving to their permanent (and more conveniently located) address, in your baby's abdomen.  And to serve your growing baby's needs, the placenta is also growing.  It weighs about an ounce now and will weigh one to two pounds at birth (something else you'll soon be able to blame your weight gain on!). 
Also developing this week: your baby's vocal chords. Because sound can't travel through your uterus (your baby's current habitat), you won't be able to hear any sounds or cries just yet, but oh boy (or girl) — those vocal chords will get a good workout once that baby is born.

Size of baby: 3" long, peach sized

Total Weight Gain/Loss: -13.5 or so pounds

Maternity Clothes: I am finding myself tending towards some of my flowy-er and roomy-er tops the last two weeks.

Gender: should know sometime by the end of June/early July

Movement: No little bubbly feelings yet... maybe soon though!

Sleep: sleeping alright. I think that thyroid meds help that.

What I miss: waking up on any given day and not having to worry about if it will be a nauseous one or not. Sandwiches. 

What I'm Looking Forward To: 2nd trimester (next week- YAY!), feeling the baby move, hearing the heart beat, finding out if its a boy or a girl.

Cravings: None really.  Feeling kinda yucky lately so food just doesn't sound good.  Sticking with my safety foods... grilled cheese sandwiches, cottage cheese and tomatoes, applesauce, salads.

Symptoms: Morning sickness, headaches, ligament pain

This week has been okay.  I think we've just been coming down off of the stress of life in general and everything that happened that I mentioned last week.  I can take pretty much anything when it comes along, but I do struggle with the effects of stressful times after, when everything should be settling.  We had to take Roslyn to the doctor Monday for her thumb, and then ended up having to have it x-rayed, which was another stress for us.  She's on antibiotics for the infection and her x-ray came back completely normal, thankfully.  Right now, we are all just doing the best that we can to take care of Roslyn and each other, and of course the baby.  Things are slowly getting better and will continue getting better, I'm sure of it.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

12 Weeks :)

Week 12 of Pregnancy: Fetal Organs and Systems
Most of your baby's systems are fully formed, and if you haven't already, it's likely that you'll finally hear your baby's heartbeat at this month's checkup! Your developing fetus now has a crown-to-rump length of about two and a half inches (the size of a large plum). 
This week marks a turning point for your baby. At 12 weeks pregnant, the herculean task of developing new bodily structures is nearing an end as most of your baby's systems are fully formed. Now comes the maintenance phase, during which your fetus' systems continue to mature for the next 28 weeks and the organs get to work.  
Your little fetus weighs as much as half an ounce now, and the crown-to-rump length is about two and a half inches (the size of a large plum — busily working his or her way through the whole produce department). It's hard to believe (especially from the outside, since you're probably barely showing at this point), but your baby has more than doubled in size during the past three weeks.  And that's just on the outside — there's plenty going on inside too. The fetal digestive system is beginning to flex its digestive muscle — literally — as it starts practicing contraction movements, a skill your baby will need after birth to push food through the digestive tract. The pituitary gland at the base of the brain has started producing hormones. And the bone marrow is making white blood cells, which will one day help your baby fight infection (including all those germs passed around the snot-nosed playgroup).   
If you haven't already had the pleasure, it's likely that at this month's checkup you'll finally hear your baby's fetal heartbeat — a sound that will make your heart race with joy!

Size of baby: depending on what site I look at, between 2-2.5" long... plum sized.

Total Weight Gain/Loss: -12.5 total (which my dr said is fine with my weight and to be expected with going on thyroid medication)

Maternity Clothes: none... just rockin' my regular clothes.

Gender: Too early to tell :)

Movement: None yet, of course.

Sleep: Sleeping much better. Hopefully its the thyroid meds helping. 

What I miss: not having to wake up an hour and a half before I need to be up to take my medicine so I can go straight back to sleep so it stays down.  And I miss when I didnt have to always be up 30 minutes earlier than I need to be to fix the sick feeling. Oy!

What I'm Looking forward to: The 2nd trimester. 

Cravings: right now I could kill for a loaded baked potato or loaded mashed potatoes.

Symptoms:  Fatigue, morning sickness, ligament pain, headaches.

Best Moment of this last Week: Kristin surprised us with a moses basket for the baby, continuing a very special and sweet tradition between us.  I also found and paid for a changing table, just need to pick it up! :)

This last week has unfortunately been filled with a lot of family issues and hardships.  There was an argument with my mother in law at our house which left us feeling attacked, depleted and left me with scratches and bruises.  And has left me feeling victimized, abused, saddened, angry and scared all of the time.  Victimized and abused due to the emotional and physical aspect of the issue, emotional because I know that my daughter was awake and heard it all and so confused and scared by it herself, depleted from the stress of it all and the worry that it might or could have already hurt the baby, angry that I allowed it to happen in my home and scared that I will never be truly free from the possibility of it happening again, because its been in our lives for twelve years now.  The one positive about things reaching a boiling point now is that no one can tell me it's in my head.  I'm not crazy.  I've never been crazy with regard to my concerns of her in our lives.

Right now, I am just looking for healing and strength.  It is not ok to be abused in any way shape or form in  life by anyone.  It is not ok to ask the person who is being abused to be quiet or apologize for what she needs to do to fix what she never broke in the first place.

I will always be real.  I will always be honest.  And I will not censor or run from that truth.  And no one has the right to ask me, or anyone else who has been in this kind of situation, to do so.  I will do my best to remain respectful, but I will not hide my truth.  No matter what.