I saw this on the ever addictive internet crack that is pinterest the other night and was struck silent and motionless by the truth that it holds for my life.
So often in my life, I feel like I spinning counterclockwise in this adventure of life with Drew. I love him like crazy. He's my world. My best friend. My soul mate. My love. My rock. My soft spot to land. My safety. My warm embrace. My adventure. Simply, my everything. Because with him, my life has turned into EVERY SINGLE THING that I ever thought it could be. Our song even contains the lyrics:
"ain't no me, without you."
baby us the day we got married 1-22-99
It's our truth and what we endeaver to live every single day.
But it's not always easy.
I've been told we make it look easy.
Adventuring in CA July 2012
And I've been told "I could never deal with that!"
You see, I'm married to a man of excellence, determination, integrity and drive in every little thing that he does. Whatever he sets his mind to do, he does and he does it well. With his entire heart and soul. He is a devoted, loving and true husband. He is a devoted, doting, loving and strong father to his little girls. And he is a talented, driven, professional and humble musician. And he is in DEMAND. By sometimes it seems like every single person or place on the planet. He's gone a lot. And I get tired of that honestly. I get burnt out. I get over worked and sometimes it feels overlooked due to the nature of his life and the sacrifice that that entails. Oftentimes, I do without him, so that others can have him. And sometimes that gets old.
We recently came off of a stretch of time like that. He had gigs and rehearsals for 6 days straight in addition to the 60+ students that he teaches a week. I rarely saw him, let alone had quality time or even an uninterrupted conversation with him. I was cranky. I was sad and yes, I was even angry. I ranted to a few of my great friends (thank you again Shannon and Sera!) and I just endured it. I missed him. I longed for him to be home.
Drew doing his thing with the Cheektones 2012
So how do we get through those times when people can't seem to see how one could?
We are grateful that we have the other person to miss. We're grateful that the others absence in our life is noticeable. And we don't take one single second of time together for granted. We encourage each others needs and passions in life and we try to help each other in any and every way that we can. I stay at home with the girls so he can go play music. He works hard to pay for my education and tells me every single day that he is proud of me. He is silly with me. If something is important to me, it's important to him too. We make even a simple outing an adventure together. We ask each other questions and genuinely want to know the others answers. We talk about future, our present and our past. We are the very best of friends. He is my one true very best friend in this entire world. He makes me a better person. He taught me how to love, he taught me how to need, and he taught me what it feels like to be truly happy. He's my everything.
with my very best friend. August 2012.
I'm grateful that I get to miss him and that when those times that I do really miss him. I'm grateful that when it comes down to it, all i want is to rest my head on his chest and have him hold me. I'm grateful that we found each other and we have this life together. I'm grateful that he exists. Because there ain't no me without him.